Friday December 30, 2017 I had an emotional melt down. A day of feeling only sadness. It was the same day I took the Cat Woman photos.
I took those first, I started to feel the emotions build up inside and I thought I’m going to go with it.
I didn’t want to use the Nikon, so I used my iPhone. I held the smartphone as the tears started to flow down my face.
What kind of shocked me is how much I liked how they came out. I shared this with some of my friends, who had invited me to a New Year’s Eve party. I told them, “I’m not attending I’m just not feeling it. They said “you look so sad in those photos.” Good. Because that was what I was going for.
Mr. Sam said “Looking at them makes me sad, but I can’t stop looking at them.” Mr. Sam came up with the titles for these photos.
I have since snapped myself out of that 24 hr meltdown. I am back to my sarcastic and slutty habits.
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I had to work at my PT gig today. I was feeling a Madonna 80’s look. I can’t dress in total costume, still have to wear the black shirt & khakis. So I tried to do something with the hair, makeup & basic accessories. I have collected my “dress up costumes” since my kids were young so I have a little bit of everything.
I’m glad this is only temporary because I don’t think I have the physical capabilities to work retail. It’s really hard on my lower back & feet. But like I’ve said before I’m sure that it’s the same for others who work retail.
I think the next costume will be something dark. And the weekend will be something do to with a solid color. Other co-workers wear merchandise of their choice to promote the Halloween season. I have issues with using items that strangers have used or tried on. I could suck a strangers cock but can’t wear a hat that a stranger has put on their head before me. See the madness that is me?!?! LOL
Hopefully I’ll remember to post other photos of my Halloween looks.
Who you’ve been runnin’ around in this tell all town
I guess you’ve finally got the best of me
I guess you thought I’d never see
You know it’s so hard to believe how we came down
Like we were nothin’ baby, who you been lovin’ lately? -Big & Rich
Today I needed to cut the grass before the heat wave hit Northern Illinois.
Since he has been unable to do anything with his hands its up to me to get it done. I’m pretty much doing everything. He bought his new tractor last summer because the push mower hurt his hands and his legs.
I had to learn how to start the Husqvarna. I was getting ready to complete this task by myself. Had my hair did, do-rag on. I even downloaded a song just for the occasion.
“Thank god I’m a Country Boy” by John Denver.
I really had fun, even mowing over the snake.
This month’s prompt is the word “change.”
What does the word “change” inspire in you? Change of heart, sea change, perhaps the change in your pocket? Does it inspire fear or excitement? Dread or anticipation? Show me what the word means to you in an image! – Sinful Sunday
Change is always difficult, uncomfortable. Change can be good and liberating. Most people don’t like change and I’m not talking about the change in my pocket. lol. Most of us have those bloggers who inspires us to push ourselves. By pushing ourselves we can grow, this comes through change. I have two bloggers that when I see their photos, I say to myself “I wish I could take photos like that!”
Photos in which they are nude and seem to be 100% comfortable with their bodies. I have deep seeded issues when it comes to showing off my naked body, caused by the mental & verbal abuse of two of my exes. You will probably never see my fully nude body. However, I am attempting to change how I see myself by stepping outside my comfortable zone by taking some photos that are different from my regular style.
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