Why isn’t One Man Enough?

If you are a regular reader of mine, you already know about Mr. Sam.

Last week Mr. Sam hit a rough patch in our friendship. The next day I unloaded most of my emotional wreckage onto my Beloved. He sat there listening to me babble on about Mr. Sam. I think my Beloved thought that the newness of Mr Sam would wear off. However, it has not. Although Mr Sam tends to get under my skin, so does my Beloved so that’s not a big deal. My Beloved knows I get bored with life, friends, family and activities.sassycat3000, latina, sexblogger, relationships, lovers, affairs, wayward

Boredom is my main trigger that gets me into major trouble when I don’t keep a close eye on it. I can get into a lot of trouble when I’m bored. Is that the same as being bored with one man? I believe we were never met to be monogamous. Does that mean we get bored with one partner? I have become bored with my Beloved? Maybe. Routine. Is that boredom. Is it that I am a different person now that I was when I first married him? I think I am a little different, not much. I think that the woman I am now was hiding all those years ago.

My beloved & I have gotten into a comfortable marital rut. You know, routines, patterns and competency. And what is my trigger? Right, boredom. Routines and patterns cause boredom. Through out our marriage I have always had another man in the background. I refer that guy to “the drunk I need in my life.” Because 9 times out of 10 the guy who is in the background is some addict, mainly alcoholics. They provide the chaos and drama I need to keep me going.

Looking back to the early 2000’s when my life hit the skids, when I had my mid-life crisis. It was then I used the internet to escape from reality. I met a few men, through social sites I was on. These men don’t haunt me like they used too. The ones that are fresh in my memory are my 805muse, he was around for almost 7 years. A daily dose of my drunken muse, until he reconnected with sobriety and his cult the JW’s. Not sure about the time frame, but then enters Charlie. Charlie comes back into my life, having his drunk ass in my life was wonderful UNTIL his toxicity contaminated me after years of being clean. I enjoyed having Charlie in my life. However we both knew it was time to end it. So we did just that.

In October 2016 I met Mr. Sam. He has consumed a lot of my time since our meeting. I have neglected so much work, chores and other things. We text during the day when I’m at home. We text in the last evenings before I go to bed. Mr. Sam is always there. There was a few weekends ago when I kicked him to the curb for something I pushed him to do. After a night of thinking I might have lost him, I cried to my Beloved about losing my background guy.  I’m not sure what my Beloved was expecting with this new man in the background at all. I like having Mr Sam in my life, I know he’s always there for me when I need him. He listens, we laugh a lot, we party together and we can understand each other on a different level than my Beloved and I. I really do love Mr Sam, in my own crazy way, more so than the others. I really would hate to give him up. I can’t see what life would be like without him, yet I know deep in my heart – nothing lasts forever.

The morning I cried to my Beloved about Mr Sam, I asked him “why can you be enough? Why isn’t one man enough for me? What’s wrong with me, I feel the need to have two men or sometimes more in my life at all times?” I felt horrible about saying that to him, had he said I would have died. He sat there and listened, comforting me as I cried about the possibility of losing the other man in my life. What sick & twisted shit is this?

Mr Sam looked at me at said “You just want to combine me & your Beloved into one man, into your perfect man.” I laughed and smiled and asked “is that possible?” LOL. Deep in my heart I know this will not end how I envisioned it, but will probably end in more tears and shattered hearts than happily ever after. I wish I knew why one man is not enough for me.

This was Wicked Wednesday’s Prompt #248 

My Monthly Beauty Box Subscription Addiction

I love getting stuff in the mail. Can anyone tell me that they don’t like getting packages in the mail? Bills don’t count.

A few months back, like in October I wanted to get some new mascara. I had wanted to try some new makeup products but never seem to be able to afford some of the products. I also wanted to be able to write some reviews on some new products.

Then I was scrolling through my old websites and found one site I had forgotten all about. I logged on and looked around, signed up to receive a few beauty boxes a month. The price varies on the company box. I also signed up during the holidays when the deals were pretty good. I didn’t have to pay full prices on some of the monthly boxes.

I signed up for the Wal-Mart Box. Target Beauty Box. Allure Box and Ipsy Glam Bag. I had to stop because it could get expensive especially when the boxes are $10 each. The Wal-Mart box is $5 and is sent out every three months and the others are monthly.

I received the Wal-Mart Beauty Box first back in October of 2016. The first Wal-Mart box was mostly all lotions, which was really ok because winter was coming and so was the dry skin. Then I moved onto the Ipsy Glam Bag and the Target Beauty Box in November. And now around every mid-month I receive a new Ipsy Bag and a new Allure Beauty Box. The Target Beauty box must be ordered monthly, which is ok. You get to see ahead time what’s inside so you don’t have to order it if it’s not something you want or need.

I had planned on starting to review the boxes, but you have how I’ve been lately. A mess, unorganized and undisciplined when it comes to my writing and blogging. I really need to be cock slapped.

I like the Allure Beauty Boxes the best. Their “samples” are at the higher end, if you know what I mean. For March I received the following items…march allure beauty box, sassycat3000, latina blogger, subscription addiction, monthly samples,

  • Akar Skin Ruby Tint Lip Butter – There is a code on the box for 20% off my first purchase. 100% natural & organic. Not bad for the lips, I will use it up.
  • Derma E Vitamin C Concentrated Serum – I will always use an anti-aging serum every chance I get. I like this product.
  • John Frieda Luxurious Volume 7 day Volume in-shower treatment – Haven’t used this yet, but I’m pretty sure I wont be disappointed.
  • Londontown Lakur Enhanced Colour -“Cheerio” is the color I received a sheer pinkish color.
  • Londontown Kur Nourishing Cuticle Oil – This is great stuff. I love it. Winter is always hard on my hands, so this came at a great time now that spring is here.
  • Secret Invisible Solid Cool Waterlily Deodorant. A sample, which is ok. I like trying new stuff.

There wasn’t anything in the Allure Box that I didn’t like. Each month you get a new bag to use, some are cute and some aren’t. Mostly they’re intended for you to use as a compact makeup bag. I use them for all sorts of other things.

 In the Ipsy Bag, my favorite product is…

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  • Tarteist™ quick dry matte lip paint – Vibin(wine) color. The color lasts long, matte. I’m really getting into these matte lip paints.

Target’s Beauty Box for March I received the following…

  • Missha Time Revolution First Treatment Essence
  • Soapbox Bamboo Shampoo & Conditioner target beauty box, sassycat300, latina blogger, beauty porducts, subscription addiction
  • Jergens Natural Glow Wet Skin Moisturizer – This is my favorite product out of the box. In the winter my skin gets so dry that I would use baby oil before drying off with a towel then adding the lotion before getting dressed. But this lotion is GREAT! I rub it in before drying off and I don’t have to add anymore moisturizing products to my skin after that. I loved it so much that I went out and purchased a large bottle.
  • Dove Volume & Fullness Dry Shampoo
  • Neutrogena Hydro Boost Lip Shine – This is ok. A bit waxy, sticky on the lips. Makes me rub my lips together a lot.
  • Skinfix Foaming Oil Cleaner – I like this facial cleaner as well. A very small dab of cleaner goes a long way.

My favorite box is the Allure Beauty Box.

You get more bang for your buck as well as a variety of products. There is a booklet that comes inside that tells you all about your products. It’s a draw between the Target & Ipsy Bag and lastly the Wal-Mart Beauty Box. The Wal-Mart box is only $5 and really is a great deal for some samples. If I could afford it (monthly) I would subscribe to FabFitFun Box but that’s $49.99. Can’t afford it yet! I just might have to add the Birchbox though because that one is only $10 a month.

 

Dates, Mates & Relationships [TMITuesday]

1. Which of these are you most often guilty of in a relationship:
a. jealousy…..this is really bad when I’m drunk. I’m jealous over men that I have no right to be, because they are not mine. I get a tab jealous of my few female friends however, not as much as with my men.
b. not apologizing…..I never used to say “sorry.” My beloved worked on me for years, I do apologize when its my fault or if I hurt you.
c. not keeping your word
d. guilt trips…not so much anymore, but I can still manipulate a situation for my benefit.

2. Which of the following behaviors would annoy you most in a partner.
a. fishing for compliments by verbalizing self-doubt…I do this more than he does, but he still does it just doesn’t bother me.
b. passive-aggressive behavior…this would get on nerves after a while.
c. usually forgets important dates i.e., birthday, anniversary…don’t really care all that much. Because I discussed that ahead of time. The only real important date is my birthday! My card and or gift must be on the dining room table before I start my day. Or it must be handed to me before my birthday, not the evening of shit.
d. making you feel guilty when spending time with friends

3. Consider you are looking for a mate, rank these traits in order of importance, with 1 being most important, and 7 being least important.
_5_ Kindness
_1__ Honesty
_6_ Ambitious
_3__ Confidence
_2__ Reliable
_7__ Assertive
_4__ Sense of Humor

4. Score! You exchanged numbers with a hottie. Now you: (pick one)
a. Wait for a week, see if that person calls you first.
b. Call the next day if not sooner.
c. Call and text incessantly. Let them know they’ve made an impression.
d. You’d never call. What if you get rejected?

5. How did you handle your last relationship break up?
a. You’ve never been in a relationship before. The timing’s never been right.
b. You went out and got drunk every night, until you forgot everything.
c. You went out on a massive amount of date, even with people you knew you had no interest, making sure to date a new face every night.
d. You felt bad and cried, but bounced back in a couple of days….months and months..I think that’s a year. LOL

Bonus: Would you take a holiday all by yourself, at the ‘spur of the moment’? Why or Why not? Where would you go? Probably not. I’m too scared to go too far from home…alone. I could travel to someone’s place by myself…but not just go somewhere, anywhere alone or spur of the moment.

 

Monday Morning Masturbating [MM131]

It’s a gray drizzly day in Northern Illinois. However, I made it through Monday with a smile on my face after receiving & reading these text along with these photos.

Good morning, Cat….. Thought of your new bra and wanted to show you the effect. I love seeing your breasts swelled in the cups. I like the color and the delicate decoration displaying such beautiful cleavage. It almost looks like your hand is between your thighs, I’d like to think you fingering your clit while taking your photo. Would love to see more of this brassiere, with you in it, of course.

….I woke up thinking of these pics….. I looked at them briefly before going to bed. You are desirable and I got hard thinking of you and as I squeezed my balls and stroked my cock I decided to show you….. the feeling of lust was still there, so I thought of sucking your nipples as I stroked my cock and felt myself cumming so I grabbed my phone.

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As I look at this new photo I may have to masturbate again….You are incredibly sexy, Cat….

I was busy with family things today. However, I arrived home an hour before I had to drive out-of-town for the second half of my work day. I’m sure you can imagine what I was doing before I had to leave for work.

I hope you enjoyed Masturbation Monday as much as we did!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Shopping! [SS308]

Weekends are for ….SHOPPING.

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I received a Victoria Secret gift ecard last week from an admirer of my cleavage, photos and stories.

I went to the mall to select my new bra. The Victoria Secret Perfect Coverage Bra.

Most of you know I edit the hell out of my photos. WHY?! Because I’m filled with self-image and self-hate issues. That isn’t a plea for anyone to debate or to attempt to make me feel better. Not my intention, it’s one of my character defects that I work on daily.

I took the following photo to share with my admirer via Sinful Sunday, but I felt old & fat. (OH Yeah?! Stop complaining and do something about it. I know, I hear that in my head).

I always show my beloved the photos before I use them and ask for his opinion. I sent him the edited version first then the original. [BELOW] This photo he didn’t understand the editing.

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On or Off?

He went on to say he wasn’t sure of my point, then I sent him the original. Now mind you, I hate how I look in it. We know our flaws, I don’t need him to point them out, but I wanted him to see the difference in the photos. After looking at them both he says “the original is not flattering to you at all. Your belly is too big and it looks like the bra doesn’t fit.

I’m not upset, because I knew exactly what he was talking about. That’s what I’d seen as well, being insecure I asked Mr. Sam for his opinion. This is what he said “I think it’s hotter than the edited one. Shows your boobs, skin color, and your stomach don’t look fat but when you look your eyes go straight to boobs (as you want) then follow your stomach to wonder what’s below.”

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My admirer enjoyed my previous photos and I hope he continues to enjoy my edited & unedited photos. They are for him to enjoy. I truly am grateful for the few admirers, efriends and followers that I have. Thank You, Mr. T for my beautiful, new blue VS bra!!!

 

Rest & Relaxation

But there really isn’t any rest for the wicked and wicked I truly am.

I normally don’t like posting unflattering photos of me. However, I’m trying to push myself out of my comfort zone a little at a time.

I’m always the one taking pictures of others. Here is a photo taken by someone else. I found this photo somewhat fitting because of the end of February Photo Fest. I’m disappointed in myself for not keeping up with it this month. I’ve said it before I can give all the excuses for not keeping here with things here. Hopefully I can get my shit together, get back on track.

There ain’t no rest for the wicked
Money don’t grow on trees
I got bills to pay, I got mouths to feed
There ain’t nothing in this world for free
I know I can’t slow down
I can’t hold back though you know I wish I could
No there ain’t no rest for the wicked
Until we close our eyes for good…” by Cage the Elephant

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A Cleavage Tribute

 

Dick pictures. I do not like when a man sends them in a first contact email or direct message,  EXCEPT when those photos come from someone I know and when those photos are tribute photos. Those are the best!

I welcome those anytime and every time.

Recently I received some tributes photos that used my cleavage vamp photos, Sinful Sunday Vamp photos.

I find those photos hot. Why? Because I get off (not sexually, but mentality & emotionally) knowing that a man is wanking off to my photos. I feel sexy & desirable.

My favorite of all of them is the first one below.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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