Fapping to My Photos and Stories [WW111]

You take a pic. You angle it for your best assets to show. You write a short piece. It’s hot sweaty sticky and delicious. You make these public, you share.

Do you care what the viewer or reader does with them? No. Not really. OK. I do care if my photos are downloaded without my permission or used publicly without my consent. If a man uses my photo to fap to, that’s cool with me. I’m flattered. BUT just ask me and I’ll “autograph” it and send them a copy. My stories are meant to be a turn on, just don’t share them without my permission.

Having some fun in the hotel room.

Having some fun in the hotel room. (July 2014)

Does it turn you on to know that you stimulate? HELL YES! Sure, I have some men that hint around with they do with my photos, but it’s more flattering to have confirmation that I am turning on men when I post my photos. I often wish that my viewers would get a little more involved with me and communicate a bit more. I have had a few men, efriends contact me behind the scenes to express appreciation for the photos, etc. Sometimes I wanna just give everything up and walk away. I have done that in the past. However, I am financially invested in this site more than I was the other blogs I had created.

I'm waiting for you, my secret lover.

I’m waiting for you, my secret lover. (July 2014)

Do they ask you for permission bringing you into their pleasure? No. I have never heard from any of my viewers, admirers, readers asking for my permission, that would be ADDICTIVE, AROUSING, INTOXICATING for me. Very pleasing to me, indeed.

I bought these while on vacation in Tifton Georgia at "Twice Selected"

I bought these while on vacation in Tifton Georgia at “Twice Selected” (July 2014)

Does it humiliate you to be reduced to their masturbation fodder, you a merely specimen of the species? No. I’m not humiliated knowing that someone is masturbating to my photos. Sure, at times it can be absolutely infuriating when some ask for more than their share.  I had one “the pilot” who wanted me to take photos when ever he demanded. That is a turn off for me. Don’t tell me forcibly unless we have that type of rapport. Mostly, I need to feel that I am getting something in return for my time. Nothing in life is free!

Conversely, that picture, the light, the angles, something’s clicks. The words, the ideas, the movement of the story. Your body reacts. You save it for later. You know why. A private movement and moment.

[I would love to have an admirer purchase an easy to use diggie camera, maybe some suggestions on photos. Buy me some equipment so that I take better photos. Clothes, shoes are always welcome]

Do you value it less for it’s immediate function? No. I don’t like to delete them. I should because I have too many. That’s why sometimes I wish my viewers would contact me for some. I have looked into setting up a small estore here on my site to sell my extra photos, stories that are not public, selling my shoes. There is so much I want to explore, but now don’t have the time to look into it all. If anyone out there wants to do it for me, that would be great.

Is it art or literature when you masturbate over it? I do not masturbate to my own photos. Most of my erotic stories are based on my personal experiences. When I re-read them I miss the actions, the touch. My mind goes back to that time, I may get a tingle, but that’s about it.

My 805Muse asked me “when we get together, can I take video? Photos? Do you want a copy? So that you can relive the moment after you have returned home.” I found that to be an uncomfortable thought. Not video. No No. He can take all the photos he wants. Because that captures just a moment in time.

Are they human or porn in that moment of pleasure? My stories are both. Human because it’s me and porn because some one else is reading them, using it to fap off too (maybe).

Do you read the words or stare intently at the picture, or use it just to get you going? I’m visual so it would have to be the photo. My photos do nothing for me, would have to be some one else’s photo.

Do you return to favourite pieces? My stories. Yes I do, to relive them, not to use them for masturbation material. My mind can go back to the original time & place. 

You can read some of my erotic stories about Nina & Jax. Read about my blow job experiences. View my some of personal photos.

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Sexting, Internet Affairs & Anthony Weiner.


Most of us know what it means. For those that don’t sexting is is the act of sending sexually explicit messages and/or photographs, primarily between mobile phones (according to Wikipedia).

Here is my podcast ..discussing my take on the Anthony Weiner situation.

There is so much to say on this topic. I feel bad for the guy. He truly has some deep seeded needs that are not being met, thus his acting out. He is just like other men who sext with women who are not their spouses, he just got caught. He should have never trusted the chick at the other end of the phone.

I think he should toss out his political career and work in the sex industry instead, I think he’d enjoy it more, as a career decision I mean.

I feel bad for his wife, she needs to know it’s not personal, against her. Tony just needs, and he will do whatever it takes to fulfill his needs..acting out, sexting, exhibitionism, phone sex. It’s about his needs, desires and he probably truly loves his wife & son.

Hey Tony, you need to learn some lessons about “playing the game.” Get a hold of me and I’ll teach ya.  I can see that sexting is safe & clean. No need for sneaking around town, or having that apartment just for sex. No fucking in a car. No worries about someone who know seeing you walk into a motel with someone not that is not your spouse. Internet, wifi, sexting all takes masturbation to a new level. NO worrying about STD’s. No more looking at porno mags in the bathroom, when there are women who will do this. What is going on in the back of their minds? My opinion is that the whole sexting scene with someone who is not your spouse done after meeting them online is fantasy. It’s not real. I do see this as our not to distant future. The ideal safe sex.

I wonder about those women that had phone sex with him. Why? I have never been good at phone sex. I laugh too much, because I think it’s silly. I just am not good at it, never have been. I can’t think of a scene and talk about it. I laugh. Just lemme watch a porn video gimme 10 minutes and I’m done.

Poor Tony, I don’t think his sexting has anything to do with his political job, whether or not he can do the job. Trust?! Nah H’es a politician, there should never be trust there. So, what’s new? It’s not like he got a blowjob while in the oval office!   We all make mistakes. He made one, ok a few. Oh well. Let’s move past this.

I asked for a few opinions from my listeners, twitter friends and FB friends. Oh I did create a new FB page. Wanna be my friend? Click here

Is Sexting Cheating? A few friends said….

 so if thats cheating, then watching xxx movies is looking at playboy mags going to the beach is too, have you seen what they wear, wooo hoooo  ….  yea i weigh 145lbs ha, well if you have a sexualy active mind that is not cheating, just because you get sexual comments does not mean your cheating, its more healthy then any pill, if your married toa sex phone operator, then that means she has to cheat to make the bills an u knw about it is that cheating too…. – WB


the cheating part comes when you are interacting with another person and expressing your sexual desires for them. With magazines and movies, it’s only a “one way” scenario. You see and it excites you but with texting and skyping and so on, it’s a “two-way” scenario and that’s where the difference lies… I’m old school and believe that my sexual comments should be directed and saved for my wife. Now, flirting is different because it’s harmless and everyone does it. I flirted with SassyCat for ages but she knew as did my wife that if push came to shove, I’d never do anything with SassyCat. There is that invisible line that is often crossed between flirting and actual sexual desire and that’s where it gets complicated. Where that line is, that’s a good question and one that has no definitive answer. …    –  TM


Thankfully I was around before the digital age. I still see sexting as cheating. You are not loyal to your significant other.  Also it is not harmless. A person could no more explain sexting be it pictures or messages than they could if the person was face to face with them. Also they still know the person they are talking to it getting images from. The computer or cellphone does not give the person a protective wall. The same instrument that can tie us together so easily can break us apart quickly… –  5150SilverBack


Thanks to the above friends who gave their opinions. Thanks for listening to my podcast.


The Amateur Detective


1) Did you ever find someone else’s stash of sex toys, lubes, etc.? No, not without them showing me their “hiding” places & inside their toy box collection.

2) Did you ever search someone else’s computer to determine their porn habits? I did peek through a few of my friends porn stash. He got upset & grabbed the magazines away from me. Also, peeked on a few of my friends computers in their history, but really didn’t find anything that I didn’t know already. Were you ever the object of such a search? No.

3) Did you ever investigate to see if two people were getting it on? of course, once while at a campground, out camping, I heard some “strange” sounds. I stumbled upon two individuals having sex in a make shift sex leather swing. There were also a few times when I was in high school that my friends were making out, I was ready to leave the party & I found them just making out.

4) Did you ever look for naughty pictures on someone else’s phone? Heaven’s YES! I was given a cell phone to “break into” I took it to Walmart & connected it to the photo machine, even though the phone was securely locked I could still access the photos and I DID!!! I found several of their photos that he had taken along with tons of tits & vagina’s that chicks had sent to him. My Advise: Think twice about WHO you send XXX photos to, because you never know WHO really looks at them!

5) Were you ever involved with an investigation (formal or informal) into whether some one was cheating on his/her lover? LOL, I hadn’t even read this question, but I think I already answered it with the above answer! BUT BUT BUT I will add that YES, I was taught a very good lesson from the wife of the man I was cheating with when I was only 20 years old. She asked me to meet her at a local park, she asked if I had any evidence of the affair, but she didn’t believe me. Like a very naive young girl I gave her ALL the things he had given me over the course of the affair. She wrote down most of what I said, times, dates, places. She then said to me “Thank you and remember this if you are gonna play this game. ALWAYS keep a record of everything. I mean EVERYTHING! Keep all receipts, gifts. Take photos if you need too, document dates & times & places. Because some day you may need it to get what you need to pay your bills, but not this time. You lost this one, but I’m sure you will be a quick learner & be well taken care of by some stupid bastard.”

It’s not all word for word, it’s one of those conversations a person NEVER forgets because it truly changed my life. That poor married man, was taken to the cleaners, ended up getting married 4 more times after her. Was in rehab several times over. When I ran into him just a few years ago with my current husband, I introduced them. My current hubby knew all about him, said nothing. He walked into the store & I had my moment of closure with my former lover the married man. I told him I was sorry, so sorry. That I never meant to hurt him, I thought he loved me & we would live happily ever after. He smiled & replied (I’ll never forget this either) “I have carried you around with me since that time, Carrying you through each one of my marriages, always thinking about you, now I can finally let you go.” We hugged each other & he walked out the door. I returned to my hubby, sharing everything with him. I know that it was closure for both of us, haven’t seen him in years. I heard he has crawled into the bottle & is slowly dying inside that bottle.

Bonus: Do you have a secret online identity so that you can find a secret lover? I used to, have a secret identity so that I could write my adventures, so those online friends couldn’t find me or judge me (also family). Never to find a secret lover though, it’s all fun in fantasy land. It’s when it’s carried into the real that it gets complicated. I do however still use “code” in some of my tweets & posts. I know my friends try to figure out what or who I’m talking about, 99% of the time they’re wrong.


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