Fingers [SS283]

My wet fingers. Thanks to my “English Wanker” for sending me a private video of himself wanking to some of my photos.

Immediately I was turned on from knowing he was wanking to my photos.

I could hear his quicken breath, watching him stroke himself. I couldn’t resist the temptation. I felt the urge becoming stronger. It’s been so long since I touched myself, it’s been a “lack of” sort of year for me.

But this night, I couldn’t say no to my urges.

I gave in without a fight.

Wet. Warm and felt so wonderful.


Sinful Sunday

Straightjacket Feeling [FebPhotoFest]

Lately I feel like I have spent way too much time…masturbating & watching porn. I started to worry about the idea of becoming addicted or both of those having a negative effect on me.

Perhaps that I waste too much time watching porn when I could be doing something far more productive. Then there is a thought of getting addicted to the chemical reaction in my brain to the pleasure that I am receiving while masturbating. The sedative effect also makes me want to nap which wastes more time. Time that I should be doing important things, like cleaning, laundry and other boring miscellaneous chores around the house; not jilling off, beating around the bush or flicking the bean.

There were once times when people were admitted into asylums for continual masturbation, among other things. I surely would have been committed back then.

I thought it would be a good idea to stop both of the activities I mentioned above. The result is the following…

I Wanna Touch

Don't Touch

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Sexual Practices [TMI Tuesday]

1. How much sex is too much sex? Explain. Too much sex would be sex three times a day seven days a week. If the sex interferes with daily routine, like work, etc. Then it’s too much sex. If it’s too demanding. OMG. I sound so old and uptight. lol

2. According to the Kinsey Institute, 18-29 year olds have sex an average of 112 times per year, 30-39 year olds an average of 86 times per year, and 40-49 year olds an average of 69 times per year (how appropriate!) 

a. Which group of averages would you prefer to belong? 18-29 year olds have sex an average of 112 times per year

b. Based on your age (if listed), find your group above. Would you say you are well below, pretty close to or high above your group’s average for having sex per year? This is funny, because my Beloved actually kept a record of our yearly sexual activities. Why? Because I asked him to. It varied from 52 – 90 times. The calendars are as far back as 2004. The one thing I noticed was that when I had my accident, was the year we had the most sex. There was a year that we only has sex 52 times, we couldn’t figure out why it was so low.

3. Swinging (defined here)–have you tried it? Will you try it? Do you hope/wish to try it before you die? The closet I’ve come to swinging was being involved with a couple that were swingers. I was their third. My Beloved & I did discuss the idea of swinging. I said I would be more comfortable with an “open marriage” than swinging. I don’t think I could watch. 

4. What is “having sex”? According to YOU and prior to this TMI Tuesday did you consider:
– Masturbation as having sex? Yes or No
– Performing oral sex as having sex? Yes or No. When I was young, I would argue that oral sex was not sex. However, I have since changed my opinion. That oral sex is sex. 

5. When was the last time you received oral sex? Sunday

Bonus:  What is it? It looks like artifacts representing the male & female

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Fapping to My Photos and Stories [WW111]

You take a pic. You angle it for your best assets to show. You write a short piece. It’s hot sweaty sticky and delicious. You make these public, you share.

Do you care what the viewer or reader does with them? No. Not really. OK. I do care if my photos are downloaded without my permission or used publicly without my consent. If a man uses my photo to fap to, that’s cool with me. I’m flattered. BUT just ask me and I’ll “autograph” it and send them a copy. My stories are meant to be a turn on, just don’t share them without my permission.

Having some fun in the hotel room.

Having some fun in the hotel room. (July 2014)

Does it turn you on to know that you stimulate? HELL YES! Sure, I have some men that hint around with they do with my photos, but it’s more flattering to have confirmation that I am turning on men when I post my photos. I often wish that my viewers would get a little more involved with me and communicate a bit more. I have had a few men, efriends contact me behind the scenes to express appreciation for the photos, etc. Sometimes I wanna just give everything up and walk away. I have done that in the past. However, I am financially invested in this site more than I was the other blogs I had created.

I'm waiting for you, my secret lover.

I’m waiting for you, my secret lover. (July 2014)

Do they ask you for permission bringing you into their pleasure? No. I have never heard from any of my viewers, admirers, readers asking for my permission, that would be ADDICTIVE, AROUSING, INTOXICATING for me. Very pleasing to me, indeed.

I bought these while on vacation in Tifton Georgia at "Twice Selected"

I bought these while on vacation in Tifton Georgia at “Twice Selected” (July 2014)

Does it humiliate you to be reduced to their masturbation fodder, you a merely specimen of the species? No. I’m not humiliated knowing that someone is masturbating to my photos. Sure, at times it can be absolutely infuriating when some ask for more than their share.  I had one “the pilot” who wanted me to take photos when ever he demanded. That is a turn off for me. Don’t tell me forcibly unless we have that type of rapport. Mostly, I need to feel that I am getting something in return for my time. Nothing in life is free!

Conversely, that picture, the light, the angles, something’s clicks. The words, the ideas, the movement of the story. Your body reacts. You save it for later. You know why. A private movement and moment.

[I would love to have an admirer purchase an easy to use diggie camera, maybe some suggestions on photos. Buy me some equipment so that I take better photos. Clothes, shoes are always welcome]

Do you value it less for it’s immediate function? No. I don’t like to delete them. I should because I have too many. That’s why sometimes I wish my viewers would contact me for some. I have looked into setting up a small estore here on my site to sell my extra photos, stories that are not public, selling my shoes. There is so much I want to explore, but now don’t have the time to look into it all. If anyone out there wants to do it for me, that would be great.

Is it art or literature when you masturbate over it? I do not masturbate to my own photos. Most of my erotic stories are based on my personal experiences. When I re-read them I miss the actions, the touch. My mind goes back to that time, I may get a tingle, but that’s about it.

My 805Muse asked me “when we get together, can I take video? Photos? Do you want a copy? So that you can relive the moment after you have returned home.” I found that to be an uncomfortable thought. Not video. No No. He can take all the photos he wants. Because that captures just a moment in time.

Are they human or porn in that moment of pleasure? My stories are both. Human because it’s me and porn because some one else is reading them, using it to fap off too (maybe).

Do you read the words or stare intently at the picture, or use it just to get you going? I’m visual so it would have to be the photo. My photos do nothing for me, would have to be some one else’s photo.

Do you return to favourite pieces? My stories. Yes I do, to relive them, not to use them for masturbation material. My mind can go back to the original time & place. 

You can read some of my erotic stories about Nina & Jax. Read about my blow job experiences. View my some of personal photos.

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Thoughts During Sex [TMI Tuesday]

1) What was the last fantasy you thought about while masturbating? Does watching porn count as fantasizing?

2) Do you think about fantasies while playing with your partner? Sometimes. Other times, I’m just enjoying the moment.

3) If the sex isn’t that great do you find your mind wanders? If yes, to what? OH GAWD. Yes. I have even fallen asleep at times, due to a combo of boredom & I was just exhausted. I might think about things I need to do, or something that happened during the day. 

4) Have you ever thought about a previous partner while with another? Is there someone out there who hasn’t done this?!

5) What is the biggest turn-off thought that has barged into your head at the wrong moment? Holy Shit! it’s cold in here. Why didn’t he turn on the fucking heat before we got here. 

Bonus: If you were to think of another blogger during sexual play (intercourse, masturbating, etc.) to spice things up, who would it be? (put a link to their blog so we can all go think of them) I would just rather not say. Just know there are quite a few, both male & female. I know it’s the coward’s way out. 


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Tan Weave [Sinful Sunday Wk 113]


So, here is my very simple Sinful Sunday entry for wk 113. I decided to do a section for my shoe lovers out there. I recieved these very comfy shoes from my “fireman.” He loved to pick out shoes just for me, love them before he sealed them with a kiss, handing the package over to the mailman. I knew that each pair was special to him and to me, because they were picked just for me! 

Sad to say I have lost contact with my fireman. I hope he is well and my first blog photo segment is dedicated to him and these beautiful, soft to the touch (a faux suede) extremely comfy to wear. 

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Sinful Sunday

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