It’s Times like this that I don’t miss the Bar Drama

The bar scene is never a boring one for me. Sure there are times it can be but for the most part I can get a good rush from fucking with people there.
I hadn’t been to my dive bar in a while because I had told everyone that I was on lock down due to the mother in law is visiting for the summer. This is my excuse for staying out of the bar for the summer, because I hate drinking when it’s hot outside.
A week ago I stopped in for an hour and one of my drinking girlfriends told me that another regular had told the other regulars that I was getting a divorced and that I was getting together with Mr Sam.

Not true, but a rumor made up by a chick (who said she’s my friend) who wants to tarnish my reputation with Charlie’s crew so that she can be my replacement. Don’t misunderstand, I’m NOT a party favor like she is. I’m one of the guys so to speak. She wants the connections that I have due to being Charlie’s (ex) girlfriend.
She’s going about it the wrong way. I didn’t fuck my way into Charlie’s crew. That’s what she’s been doing. She’s fucked 5 different members of the crew. Those dudes weren’t even allowed to speak to me let alone fuck me. I’m not saying she can’t fuck the dudes but trying to sleep your way to the top and tarnishing my rep is something else.

So she started spreading these rumors about me. And when I walked in to the bar last night she immediately started in with gossip. She focused mostly on Mr. Sam & my bestie playing a game of pool. She mentioned that Mr. Sam has put on weight as if a woman is cooking for him. She picked on my bestie because she repeated what had been said about Mr. Sam putting on weight.

She went on & on about how suspicious it looked that Mr. Sam was ignoring me but hanging with my bestie. Funny but Mr. Sam & I had hung out all day. Day drinking, picnic in the park and then back to see my bestie. But that venomous bitch has to have something to talk about and since I’m in the way of her climb I’m the focus.
I spoon fed her all kinds of crap. But because the alcohol started to hit me, I became unruly. The bartender had given me a free drink because he was eavesdropping on our conversation. Poor me, Mr. Sam dropped me for my bestie. Not true but I played it up. I started punching her in the leg. I was slamming my free shot glass on the countertop making noise. Charlie’s crew watched the show intently. The bartender took my glass away. I watched Mr. Sam and my bestie sit together away from me on the other side of the bar. Mr. Sam asks me for some money, I yell at him about asking me for money. People look at us. My bestie introduced me to a dude (another regular I’m familiar with but don’t know formerly). He says something and I call him a motherfucker. Feeling the alcohol really starting to affect me I become louder. My bestie says to the dude “she’s mean, I mean really mean and don’t get too close.” He replies “I know, I’ve seen her before and I know she’s mean.” I slam my hand on the bar “motherfucker you don’t know me.”

Mr. Sam tries to tell me he’s leaving but I yell at him. My bestie goes to sit with the other dude and tells me “Sam couldn’t deal with your shit.” Which I found funny, because we had already planned it. I finish up my drink and tell the backstabbing chick that I’m leaving. She walks me out to my car, asking if I’m ok to drive home. Insisting I allow her to drive me home, no thank you. I’m not going home, I’m going to Mr. Sam’s apartment.

An Open Letter [BFMH2017]

Sometimes I replay past events, situations over in my head.
Tonight I’m replaying Friday night and trying to figure out where it went wrong for me (& you).
I can’t see you tolerating a lot of this type of behavior from me in the future. I will say it again … that I do not like myself when I get like that. That the booze has caused me to say and do things I normally would push somewhere else.
But once again I let myself get to the point when I have no filter or no sensor to tell me to be quiet.
I’m sorry that I hurt you. I’m sorry that I treated you badly and that I kind of ruined that buzz we had going. Eventually you will grow wary of the continuous outbursts, disappointments and tantrums. Maybe not this week or next…but you will. Not saying that you would leave or dump me but you will change. And I don’t want you to change who you are because I’m acting awful.
I don’t know how it spun so quickly out of control for me.
Ok. Maybe I do. I was jealous once again, but not in the way you think but maybe insecurity. I hate when I get like that. I hate when I feel jealous, insecure for no reason. I get frustrated because I want everyone to know that you are mine, that you belong to me. But I can’t do that and it makes me mad.
In the car I know I hurt you, today you shut down on me again. I pushed you Friday night and today I seen it. I felt it. I said nothing until now, because I hadn’t processed it in my head. I know if the tables were turned I would want you to acknowledge your behavior and apologize.
My fear is that one…you’ll leave out of frustration of this behavior.
Two: that I will continue to act like this when I get jealous, feel ganged up on and feeling picked at.
I don’t mind when you tease me, pick at me in fun but when I ask you to stop and you continue, I get angry and lash out. Like the time at the bar when I hit you in the face. Which I hate myself for because I don’t like being disrespectful to someone I care about. But when I ask you to stop teasing me I just want you to respect that at that moment. It’s the same as if I said “stop” or “no” during sex. I know you wouldn’t keep doing it,right?
Unfortunately as you know those childhood wounds run deep.
I know that I always want you in my life. Even if we’re just being friends, I would be ok with that.
I’m sorry, I really am. I hope this makes sense to you and doesn’t make things worse. I love you.

Examples of BPD symptoms in the above are….

Unstable Relationships. A pattern of unstable intense relationships, such as idealizing someone one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn’t care enough or is cruel.

Impulsive and Risky Behavior: such as gambling, reckless driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating or drug abuse, or sabotaging success by suddenly quitting a good job or ending a positive relationship.

Emotions: Intense and highly changeable moods, with each episode lasting from a few hours to a few days.

Impulsive Aggression: coupled with a highly reactive and unstable affect modulation. Thus, patients with BPD will respond to disappointment and frustrations with intense emotions like rage, fear of abandonment and dysphoria. Then serve to trigger the generation of an impulsive, often aggressive, response to the provocation.

Push-Pull Syndrome: A chronic pattern of sabotaging and re-establishing closeness in a relationship without appropriate cause or reason.

 

 

Crawl! Get on all fours and Crawl! [kotw]

The first image that came into my mind when I read the prompt for kink of the week was the scene in one of my favorite movies “9 1/2 Weeks.”

When I watched it back then I felt like there is no way I would ever want to crawl for anyone and the money would make me feel like a prostitute. I wasn’t turned on by that scene at all nor would I get turned on by watching someone crawl to me.

If there was a man in my life who felt submissive more than dominant, I suppose I could see him crawling for me or to me. If I’m on the floor with my partner and he crawls to me, it’s not because it’s a sexual thing it’s because he probably is getting closer to me and crawling would be easier than standing up and walking.

Adding to this that my knees are no longer the knees of a 20 something year old. I’m missing ligaments in one knee and this Thursday I will get the results of my recent MRI test on the other knee, which the doctor seems to think I tore the meniscus. So, I am not thrilled to be on the floor crawling on my hands and knees.

I will say Molly’s prompt photo is very sexy, crawling photos? Yes I think those can be sexy. Still not sexually turned on by looking at them.

Molly asked “…those that actively hate the idea of it. Why do you think is?”

Why do I hate crawling? I don’t. I just don’t get in to crawling.  In my mind it makes me degraded more than I care to feel. I don’t mind a good degrading hardcore fucking but crawling on all fours crosses a line with me. I really don’t have a specific reason. The kink of crawling leaves me cold and indifferent. I don’t see it ever being a part of my sex life.

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Satisfyer Pro Penguin [Review]

I have reviewed the Satisfyer 2.

The second clitoral vibrator I received from the Satisfyer family is the Satisfyer Pro Penguin.

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The Satisfyer Pro Peguin is also a touch-free clitoral vibrator that uses the “pressure wave” technology.  The opening of the vibrator is placed over the clitoris to feel the vibrations made from the burst of air coming from the device. The Penguin also has 11 different levels of intense vibrations. However, instead of having two separate control buttons the penguin has combined the control buttons in one central area. Once the power button is pushed it will light up and stay lit until the device is turned off. You can increase the vibrations by pushing towards the button area of the control button.

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Something I do not like about Pro Penguin is that once you have pushed the power increase button you can not decrease the power until you have reached the maximum level. Once you have maxed out power then the Penguin will begin to decrease in its intensity back down to the lowest level.

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The Penguin is a lot smaller than the others. It’s about 5 inches in length and compared to the Satisfyer 2 the opening on the Penguin is larger with an obtuse angled head & neck with a rounded penguin-like body. This device is silky, smooth silicone texture verses the smooth plastic of the Satisfyer 2 and the Satisfyer Pro 2. The white silicone tip is removable for easy cleaning. It is also thinner than the Satisfyer 2. I experienced some roughness from the edges while using this device. I didn’t have a problem with the white removable tip falling off until the Penguin was used on me by my partner. When he would switch hands or move the vibrator around for some reason the tip would fall off. Not once but a few times which broke my concentration.

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After holding the Penguin for a few minutes I noticed that I feel the vibration more in my hand than I did with the other two Satisfyer’s. Perhaps because its smaller and is silicone that the vibration is more pronounced in this model than in the plastic models. This model has rechargeable li-ion batteries sealed inside the body and it comes with a magnetic USB charging cable.

WHAT I DIDN’T LIKE ABOUT THE SATISFYER PRO PENGUIN

  • The white silicone tip is too thin for my liking. Sometimes it fell out while in use or in transport.
  • The intensity/vibrating control button is like being on an elevator, going up (stopping at every floor) to the skydeck looking around and coming back down but also stopping on every floor. I prefer the Satisfyer 2’s +/- control button.
  • Wasn’t too thrilled with the “power on” light.

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WHAT I DID LIKE ABOUT THE SATISFYER PRO PENGUIN

  • I do like the size of the Penguin, the shape is kind of cute. I like the feel the silicone feels in my hands.
  • Contains Li-ion (rechargeable) batteries. The magnetic USB charging cable is included.
  • It is submergible. (Have not tested this device out underwater. I am kind of afraid too)
  • Affordable. Usually it’s less than $50.
  • Easy to clean
  • The device came inside its box that had two separate seals, to assure the customer that the device had not been previously opened.

 

Same Intense Orgasms as the Satisfyer 2.

I enjoyed testing this out as I did the other two Satifyer’s I received. This one was used by both myself during some “me time,” in which I did have some very intense toe-curling orgasms resulting in extreme wetness. I was not disappointed with the Penguin doing its job, I was only irritated when my partner was using on me and the white silicone tip kept falling out. When my partner would move the device or switch hands somehow the white insertable tip would fall out of the vibrator. Of course you are probably guessed how  annoyed I was when that happened, not to mention distracted, interrupted from reaching my orgasm.

After I had reached my orgasms, I decided to just play around with this toy. My partner laid down on his back, both of us had no expectations using this stimulator. His penis was flaccid and I placed the Penguin on his frenulum on a light-medium setting. I continued using my other hand on other areas of his penis. A few minutes passed by, when I felt his penis hardening. My partner reached an orgasm while I used the Penguin on him, just on that area. He shared that it was a different experience, different sensation and pleasurable. I’m not suggesting that the Penguin to used in this manner, I am merely sharing my experience using this stimulator.

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Satisfyer 2 [Review]

I was expecting to receive one of the Satisfyer products and was thrilled when I received three of the Satisfyer’s to test out. I received the Satisfyer 2, Satisfyer Pro 2 and the Satisfyer Pro Penguin. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to review them together and compare them to each other or to review each one separately. I decided to do each one on its own starting with the Satisfyer 2.

These touch-free clitoral stimulators use a “pressure wave” technology. In which the opening of the stimulator is placed on the clit or the area to be stimulated, to feel what seems like suction, but is really bursts of air. The higher the setting you use the more intense and more vibration you feel on your selected area. I think because of the oval-shaped head and the deeper area pushes the air harder, faster to the selected area.

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I noticed that each box had two Hygienic Seals on them. One located on the edge of the box and the other was on the bottom of the box. A form of reassurance that the product has not been opened or used until I opened it for myself. On the sides of the box were the specs and general information about the device in several different languages.

Opening the box I found the Satisfyer 2 along with a booklet of instructions also in several different languages. The booklet is broken down into Functions/Use, Cleaning, Storage and Material, Troubleshooting, Disposal and Safety Information. There is some helpful & useful information in the booklet. Also if you have any trouble with your Satisfyer 2, there is an email provided. Something that made me wonder about was written under Safety Information and it states “Do not use the product to stimulate any part of the body for longer than 15 minutes.” WHY? What will happen if you do? How do they know it’s 15 minutes, might be 10 or 20 for someone else. But what happens???? I think I might be able to answer that, however let’s continue with this other information first.

The Satisfyer 2 requires 2 AAA batteries to use it. Batteries are inserted at the bottom of the product by twisting to the bottom section to the left. Insert 2 AAA batteries, place bottom back on, twist to the right and now all I have to do is turn it on.

The outside of the Satisfyer 2 is pretty straight forward. There is a circular power button and a long multi-speed power button with a + and – symbol on it.

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Before I used the product I held it in my hand, turned it on & off. I assumed that the on/off button was just a simple push, it is to turn the Satisfyer 2 on, but you must hold down the power button for a few seconds for it to shut off. I noticed that the power button is slightly slanted. I’m not sure if there is on purpose, part of the design or if maybe I pushed it in too hard. If you look closely in the photo below you can see where the button is lower on one end than it is on the other. The power still works fine.

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The + and – button control the intensity of the pressure wave or the vibration. It’s a steady vibration no different rhythms. When you start it you are on the lowest setting. This product has 11 different levels of intensity which are all pretty good. However if you have not used a product like this before it can be a bit intense in the beginning. I can have an orgasm within the first 10 minutes of using this product.

The volume level is a bit on the loud side. I placed it under a blanket on my bed and closed the bedroom door. Windows open, birds chirping and I could just hear a slight buzzing. When the device is wide open (highest setting) it sounds like a hedge trimmer or weed whacker or even a Dremel tool that is just idling.

I don’t like that I was unable to find a price on the Satisfyer website. However, I did find several varying prices through the internet. Anywhere from $49.99 to $29.98 and everything in between.

My Intense Orgasms

I didn’t have any expectations for myself or the product. I thought that because it’s battery operated that it might not last very long. However, so far it has lasted longer than I expected. I used it a handful of times at 20 minutes at a time with a middle to high intensity level and using the same batteries I put in there when I received the product.

I have never had such intense eye-rolling in the back of my head orgasms until I used this device. Generally speaking this device is fairly easy to use one-handed. I did use this device longer than 15 minutes as stated in the instruction booklet. After a while there was a slight burning tingling sensation. Not sure if that was part of the intensity but I rolled with it. It kind of reminded me when I used to go swimming and went to the bathroom immediately afterwards. There was that weird stinging sensation. The orgasms were super intense. I’m not sure if at one point I squirted or peed on myself.  I am 99% sure I squirted. This is not the norm for me. At this point after having so many intense orgasms I really don’t care.  I am never disappointed with my orgasms that I get when I use this device.

WHAT I DIDN’T LIKE ABOUT THE SATISFYER 2

  • The device was not truly waterproof (Photos Below)
  • The control buttons were uneven (not sure if that was intentional or done by me pushing to hard)
  • Battery operated (2 AAA)

WHAT I DID LIKE ABOUT THE SATISFYER 2

  • Easy to clean
  • Removable silicone tip (Photo Below)
  • Slim line design (easy to hold)
  • Multi-speed (11 speeds, from very light pressure waves to very intense)
  • Affordable
  • Lightweight
  • Body safe

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Recommendations & Conclusion

Let’s discuss the main defect of the Satisfyer 2. It claims that it is “waterproof” with a IPX7 rating.Satisfyer 2, sassycat3000, product review, sex toy review, sexblogger, latina

  • The term waterproof implies that the product will not be destroyed, damaged if submerged in water.
  • The IPX7 rating means that the device (should be) is protected from immersion in water up to 3 feet (1 meter).

Knowing now that this product has an issue with water entering the battery chamber, it would be my recommendation that when the Satisfyer 2 is used in the shower, bathtub or a time when water can enter that the batteries be removed as soon as possible after use. That the battery chamber be dried with a q-tip, dried as thoroughly as possible. Possibly stored upright in order for any excess water to drain out.

I noticed that when the bottom part of the Satisfyer 2 is secured, that there is a tiny lip that seems to be in place of an O-ring. Perhaps a clear plastic O-ring added to create a barrier in addition to that other lip already in the body of the product.

If the product is not used totally submerged in water maybe it should be dried with head of product down in order to allow any excess water to drain out and the silicone tip removed (and cleaned).

I would also suggest not using the control buttons while the device is being used under water. There is a likelihood of water leaking into the device while using the buttons.

My Satisfyer 2 still works after the batteries were replaced (with new ones)  from being shorted out due to water exposure. The product continues to work as it did in the beginning, but for how long I not sure.

I will not say do not buy this product, because it is affordable. It does cause intense orgasms. I did enjoy using it, however I am always skeptical when a product says that it is waterproof, requires batteries or has any type of opening with the possibility of water exposure. The product can not truly be 100% waterproof.

I think that the Satisfyer Family needs to consider changing their waterproof claim.

Food for thought: The iPhone 7 has a IP67 rating which means that it is protected against dust & water.  Yet water leakage is not covered under the warranty. And knowing what you know now after reading this review, ask yourself – Would you submerge the Satisfyer 2 under water intentionally?

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Y…because I love that bar

I find myself talking more and more about the dive bar that Charlie & I used to hang out together at. Now Mr. Sam & I hang out there together, it’s still the same ol’ dirty seedy looking dive bar.

I enjoy the fucked up people who go in there who drink their troubles away. I enjoy that “cheers” atmosphere when I walk through the door.

However summer soon approaches and that means that I wont be there as much as I go there during the winter. Summer time is when I stay home, hanging out in the backyard, working in my garden and riding the motorcycle.

I’ve seen bartenders come & go and return again. Some times it’s a long time before you see the same people, other times it’s the same people everyday. Just depends on what’s going on in their lives.

Most of the time my bar friends are willing to lend a helping hand, especially when it comes to my photography. I needed something for the letter “Y” and this is what I came up with, thanks to the little missy in the photo.

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X marks the Spot

Walking down Main St. looking for ideas for photos, I was explaining to my friend how difficult the last part of the alphabet is for ideas.

She  suggested walking a bit further down the street because she noticed something on a building that would work perfectly for the letter X.

It was a pleasant day for a quick walk and then back to the bar so I agreed.

There are several run-down buildings in my dying city, few of them are marked for demolition.

This building will not be standing much longer.

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White (line)

As I was leaving the dive bar, driving through the parking lot I passed by a lone beer bottle someone had set upright on the white line. The first thing that popped into my head was ….

A million magic crystals, painted pure and white
A multi-million dollars almost overnight
Twice as sweet as sugar
Twice as bitter as salt
And if you get hooked, baby
It’s nobody else’s fault, so don’t do it! – “White Lines” by GRANDMASTER FLASH

A friend from the bar had shown me some photos of her favorite photographer, Todd Hido. I looked at some of his photos and completely fell in love with his work. Todd’s work speaks to me on an emotional & visual level.

When I seen the beer bottle standing there I stopped and took a picture. Of course I edited it to try to give it more of a dramatic look. Not nothing to write home about, but I’m happy with it. I like those photos that make a person question what they are looking at or why. What’s the story behind the bottle? I think I may continue with this type of photography (in my spare time, when I have any). Only if my eye catches these type of moments. I tend more often to miss opportunities than to capture them.

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