Go on and tell me lies, but hold me tight

I had been desperately trying to get back in to the habit of taking photos.

I remember reading Molly’s writing on why she took photos of herself and how she started it due there was another women who was taking nude photos of herself. Bottom line the photos were to boost self-esteem, create body positive awareness. I guess not to be afraid of sharing the photos, let the inner person shine through.

Those of us that take part in taking photos of ourselves and share them online, have a process that we do. Well I do. It’s no biggie if I’m just using my iPhone to snap a quick shot of myself. Otherwise my house has to be empty, unless I’m taking night photos. I have my music playing in the background to set my mood. That’s a must have-music! And I have to be in the right frame of mind. I seeing a pattern of dark moody portraits more often. Not sure why, I do like taking those better. Mr. Sam keeps telling me that I need to smile more in my photos and he keeps telling me to push myself to do more.

When did I gain all this weight? I weigh the same but holy fuck the fat is slipping out everywhere. No wonder why women have melt-downs. It’s difficult to compete with others online. Sure I’m not suppose to be comparing myself to others, but I do. After taking this last set of photos I don’t want to take anymore. Sure I can take photos of others, landscapes, animals anything but ME! Who the fuck wants to see what I see in the photos. Gross.

I have started to work out, walking and cycling everyday. As much as my knee will allow me too. I know it’s not going to happen over night, the losing weight part. As part of me doesn’t even care anymore. I ask myself I was doing this all for an emotional high and if this isn’t giving me one I guess if its time to move on to something else.

What hurt me tonight is when I took the photos, I sent them to my Beloved and to Mr. Sam. I sent the originals because they always ask for them and then the edited photos. This time I got nothing. Mr. Sam is having attitude because I told him I’ll be going out tomorrow night. Lately he has shown signs of jealousy. My Beloved isn’t fond of my dark moody portraits. When I said how fat I looked there was no response. It took all I could not to scream at him to call him mean things but I got my Borderline issues under control. He knew to give me space until I can process the ugliness that I feel now. I count on both of them to love me for the crazy wild chick that I am. To give me some feedback, but when I didn’t get it this time and that’s what’s bothering me right now.

Neither one of them will lie to me, neither one of them has so far. Sometimes I wish they would lie about how I look, tell me I’m not fat. But they know that I would yell at them “stop lying!” Tomorrow I hope that I’m over this emotional hump and continue with my workouts.

I like this photo below, there’s something about it that speaks to me.

My first Peekaboo Bra

Thanks to a follower for this gift. My very first peekaboo bra. I love the color. It’s blue with lots of glitter. I could have gone without the glitter. It doesn’t fit like I had hoped. I guess my boobs aren’t as big as I thought. The bra also came with matching panties. I haven’t decided yet it I’m gonna use that photo, we’ll see. I might end up taking another one better, ya never know, right?!

I greatly appreciate the gifts that I am given. I love it when I look in the mailbox and see that there are packages for me.

Thanks again for present!

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I Felt his Fingers slide in Deeper

We arrived back at his place. I stood there looking around, he turns around walking towards me. Standing face to face, he looks me in the eye and I feel his fingertips against my inner thighs. I stand there motionless as his fingers move slowly underneath my shorts, tugging them to the side his fingers find their way inside my panties.fingering, kink of the week

I held onto his shoulders as he leaned into to kiss me. He kisses me deeply as his fingers spread my lips apart, searching for my clit.

I let out a gasp.

He’s eyes intensely focus on my reactions. I grab on tightly to his shoulders as he pushes a finger inside of me. I moan. It feels so good. I normally want a hard cock after a while of  being fingering but not with Mr Sam. He has a way about him that I enjoy. He gets pleasure pushing my boundaries. I start to unbutton my shorts.

“Did you bring your camera?”

“Uh huh.”

He removes his fingers, stands back and I walk to my purse to pull out my camera. He smiles. “Now where were we? oh yeah.” I let my short drop to the floor and he pushes my panties down.

He leans me to kiss me. His one hand on the small of my back, his other hand is in between my legs. I wanted to feel his fingers deep inside me so I put one foot on the frame of the bed. I hear him take a deep breath as I feel his fingers moving quickly inside me. My knees get weak, I’m hanging onto him so I don’t fall and I hear the sounds of my juices. “Yeah, there it is.”

fingering, kink of the week, latina sexbloggerMy body is weak. He looks deep into my eyes and smiles then laughs. “And we haven’t even made it to the bed or laid down yet!” I grab his belt buckle and begin to undo it, unzipping his jeans. He moves back and starts to do it himself. I fall onto the bed with great anticipation & expectation of what’s to come (I should really say … of who’s to come… that would be ME!)

I pull off my shirt & bra. “OH! I get to see the girls today. It’s been a week since I’ve seen them.” I laughed. He finishing getting undressed, felling on top of me. I thought oh this sucks its gonna be a quickie and that’s it. We kiss for a while as his fingers caress my body. His hand pushes my legs apart once again as his fingers search for my clit. His fingertips play with my clit gently as he watches my face for the reaction he’s looking for. His fingers slid down to my hole, waiting. He doesn’t push in, he waits. Plays with me but still doesn’t put his fingers inside. What a tease!

He waits and when my body relaxes he thrusts his finger in, one is never enough, right? He pulls out and puts two fingers inside me. OHHHHH! My body is moving uncontrollably with the motion of his fingers going in & out of me. He scoots down until his face is in between my legs. His tongue gently touches my clit, sucking it, flicking it. He has his arm folded against my ass. He’s enjoying sucking my clit and listening to me orgasm over & over. I drifted off into another state of mind not noticing that he had moved his arm. I felt his fingers inside me again. This time I felt his finger pushing on my arse. OH!fingering, kink of the week, latina sexblogger

A first for me, never had fingers near my back door entrance. I felt dirty and I liked it. I felt a finger push a little harder, but my fear made him stop. He continues to fuck my pussy all the while his tongue plays with my clit. I feel his finger pushing against my back door again, this time I relaxed and let him push more. I’m pushing back and forth fucking his fingers that are in my pussy, he’s mouth covering the rest of me. I feel the pressure of his finger, I get scared and grab his wrist to make him stop. He waited, and then continued again. This time I didn’t stop him when I felt his fingers enter me as I pushed against him harder & faster. The twinge of discomfort was overridden by the sounds of my orgasm. OH MY GOD! How I love his fingers!!!

 

Words from Mr. Sam: I like to take my time during foreplay to make sure she is satisfied. I do love to feel her body as she cums, if it’s during sex you miss a lot of it cause your side tracked. When its foreplay all you concentration is on her, her body, her sounds.

 

A Monday Maid to Remember [SS 326]

I was asked by one of my efriends & follower bloggers if I could take so photos for him to use in his Masturbation Monday post.

He told me about his story and what he was wanting as far as photos. He was looking for a sexy maid. I grabbed my maid costume and lipstick. Take a few photos & sent the best ones to him to look over.

I’m assuming that he knows that I LOVE to dress up, especially for photos. I’m always looking for costumes, makeup and other props to use in my photos. I’ve even gotten some of my friends and family in on looking for unique items for me to use. Since the mother-in-law was staying with us for almost two months I’ve had no time to myself. He was giving me a chance to jump-start my creative juices & getting back in to the habit of taking photos. [Thanks E!!]

I’m still not comfortable in posting nudes. I don’t think I will ever be comfortable in my skin. I enjoy taking photos of my cleavage, legs, lips & eyes and generally dressing up. If you ever need a photo for a post, keep me in mind. It’s always fun trying to come up with ideas & dressing up.

Here are some of the left over photos.

 

The following are the original photos.

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