End of the Year Thoughts
What did you learn in 2015?
I learned that I don’t always follow through with blogging. I start something, sometimes quickly losing interest in it.
I learned that I am not a friendly person. I don’t have a lot of friends, however those that remain on my life I am loyal to and treasure them. I don’t always comment on posts. It’s not that I don’t want to, its that I’m afraid that my words may be misunderstood.
I learned that marriage is a lot of work. Relationships, I can see why most of mine (both past and present) had broken apart. I failed to work at my end of the relationship. Most of the time because I found it too difficult or too emotionally draining.
I learned that I enjoy taking photographs. Since the purchase of my Nikon, I’ve been snapping away at everything and anything. I’m not all that good, but my friends seem to think so. They even have asked me to take photos of their kids events. This makes me very happy.
I learned that getting older sucks brass balls. My body isn’t the same, it doesn’t look the same. It can be very depressing. My health is also not as it was. High blood pressure, overweight, vision changes, gray hair, aching joints. The list goes on, but I won’t go into it all.
I learned that I will always be different from others, because I keep myself from getting to close. I must learn to accept that I have issues when it comes to regulating my emotions.
What did you do that was new?
I started taking more photos of myself. I started working on adding different pages to this main site.
We got another dog, after the kids took their dogs with them when they moved out. The house seemed empty. Even though I’m allergic to dogs I decided to get one anyway. We got a rescue dog, an senior dog. She’s wonderful. Her temperament is gentle. She does have some hip issues, but we also have joint issues. She’s quiet, doesn’t bother with guests. No issues with aggressive. She’s a wonderful dog.
What disappointments/regrets did you experience this past year?
The lack of sex. Ok, not the lack of it, but the lack of exciting sex. I take responsibility for half of this issue. I married a man who is “safe.”
I think of those stories about lonely housewives reading those romantic novels about hot steamy sex with strangers, etc. Not getting the type of sex they so desperately crave, pushing them into the arms of a dark handsome stranger.
Disappointment in the lack of sex that I crave. Dirty hot sex, angry sex, sex that goes on for hours.
Regrets? Getting too closely involved “Charlie’s” life. Getting too attached to him, knowing details of his life that I should have never learned.
My blog and podcast isn’t any where near where I want it to be. But whose fault is that? I become envious of other bloggers who have the numbers & popularity. Who just start out and have hundreds of followers and comments. Then I think everyone is different, we all have different talents, different styles.
What did you enjoy most?
I enjoy taking photographs, editing them and sharing them.
I enjoy writing about such topics as Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression.
I really enjoyed sharing my past sexual adventures.
I like hanging with Charlie even though I know I shouldn’t. I crave that crazy roller coaster lifestyle he offers me. Full of temptations, alcohol, lust and madness.
I am thrilled when bloggers like Beck give me acknowledgements like her Top 20 Sex Bloggers for this year (and last year). This motivates me to keep going, to some bloggers it may be one of many but for me something like that means so much. It’s pleasurable to know that someone other than my Beloved like my writing & photos. It thrills me to see a comment or two on some posts that I didn’t expect any comments at all. Just enough to keep me going.
What do you need to stop doing?
I need to stop being self-centered, thinking only of myself. Stop putting off things til tomorrow that I can do today. Stop making excuses for myself.
I need to stop comparing myself to other bloggers.
Statistics on my Blog
Most Popular Post
The busiest day of the year was July 25th with 279 views. The most popular post that day was Mysterious Mistress [SS224].
In 2014 The busiest day of the year was January 5th with 269 views. The most popular post that day was Perv [SS WK 143].
In 2015, there were 160 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 1,033 posts. Longest streak was February 12 – 22. Busiest day was Sunday with a whooping 33 posts through out the year. Your most commented on post in 2015 was The Mail Room [MM60, WW178]
In 2014, there were 326 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 876 posts. Longest streak was February 11 – March 4. I posted more on Tuesday than any other day with a total of 70 posts through out the year. Your most commented on post in 2014 was Fapping to My Photos and Stories [WW111]
Top 5 Posts
- OVO W1 [Review] (2015)
- On My Knees Again (2014)
- The Mail Room (2015)
- Fapping to My Photos and Stories (2014)
- Strap-on Fun [KOTW] (2015)
- The Blowjob (2014)
- The Blowjob (2015)
- OVO W1 [Review] (2014)
- Shoe Fetishism – FillingHerShoes (2015)
- Don’t Ever Make Me Wait Again (2014)
Top 5 Referring Sites
- sinfulsunday.mollysdailykiss.com (2015)
- elustsexblogs.com (2014)
- twitter.com (2015)
- twitter.com (2014)
- rebelsnotes.com (2015)
- sinfulsunday.mollysdailykiss.com (2014)
- elustsexblogs.com (2015)
- rebelsnotes.com (2014)
- masturbationmonday.kaylalords.com (2015)
- adultbloghub.com (2014)
Top 5 Most Active Commenters
- Marie Rebelle (2015)
- Me (2014)
- Heaven (2015)
- Marie Rebelle (2014)
- Molly (2015 &2014)
- Modesty Ablaze (2015 & 2014)
- Sub-bee (2015)
- SilverDom (2014)
What are your new goals for 2016?
To work harder on my blog & podcast. To Continue to get involved with the blogging community & memes. To learn to accept my faults, work with them.
To push myself just a little but harder to open up even more about myself. To write more about what I know. What’s that? Not sure. I can share and write about my life experiences. My posts should serve as a “not to do as I do” kind of writing. There are so many thoughts and ideas that travel around my brain that I get overwhelmed. I need to stop ignoring them, writing them down. Here or in my journal.
The old faithful goal of losing weight. Not just to say that, but since my health isn’t the best as it once was, I really need to get the weight off.
…Here’s to 2016…