There was a time in my life when I was plagued with nightmares. In my youth I was acting out in sexual ways, involved in risky & reckless behavior. I had put my self in a situation that I am not proud of. There are always consequences for the actions & decisions that we make from day to day.
I had made a decision. I tried to stuff my emotions away. I was unaware of how the mind and dreams truly work.
Months after my reckless behavior and decisions. The nightmares, the bad dreams started.
I would wake up sweating, breathing heavy, sometimes crying. But the dream was always the same. The recurring dream was always the same. I didn’t know much about dreams back then. Just the basics, that the mind twists up our daily photographs, twists up issues that we don’t deal with openly. The stuff that is lurking deep in the dark corners of the mind. Dreams are all those things and more played for the sleeper’s entertainment purposes. lol.
I’ll keep the dream short & basic. The parts that I remembered most was being in a background scene like in West Side Story. Two large apartment buildings on both sides that created a seedy looking alley way that was a dead end. There was laundry hanging upon stretched out between the two buildings. The dream took place at night. There was a shiny black car, something like out of the movie “Transporter.” There was a blonde haired man in a black suit (like Men in Black). He would always threaten me, blackmail me. He had something in the trunk of the car. I would try to keep him from opening it. I would beg him, plead with him. I would chase him around the car. I tried to make the dream different but I couldn’t. Afraid that the people living in the apartment buildings would find out my secret. What was in the trunk? Why is he doing this to me? My life will be ruined.
Months went by. The local community college was offering a class on Dream Interpretation. I jumped at it. I took the class. I learned how to interpret my dreams. Dream Interpretation is now one of my favorite little hobbies. By the end of the class, I had confronted my recurring dream head on. I will share this. Guilt. Guilt is a powerful emotion. If it’s not dealt with properly it will haunt you at night in your dreams.
Have you ever had a recurring dream? Nightmares?