I interviewed Frankie Picasso on Sunday on Cat’s Tale Podcast. One of statement that was discussed is when we reach a point in our life where we embrace who we are meant to be. Ever get the feeling of fighting yourself from the inside? Being forced to behave in a manner that is acceptable to perhaps your family or employer? The whole time your insides are fighting and you get this uncomfortable feeling in your spirit?
I think I have finally reached a point in my life when I say “enough, I am who I am, accept me or not.” I have tried to “fit” into molds that I thought people wanted me to be. Like that perfect wife, or perfect super mom! That nearly killed me. Those women scare the shit out of me, there is something wrong with them (I think).
I have always been a bit different, rebellious by nature and very open to ideas outside the norm. I think that scares people too, I am finding out that I am not the only one. I accept that I am not perfect, not the best mom..I will never win the “mom of the year” award, not the best housewife. I do what I can, when I can. Now that the kids are grown and moved out, I can feel comfortable with being me again…my son says “who are you? my mom was this….and this…and that.” I just laugh.